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again this time!

it is not the first time that I am getting troubled by one old question. so I should put question clearly and then try to understand what it is really for me and then if I feel so deep urge to encounter it, then I should seek answer or solution.
what place other person holds in one's life? is is not the case that one should be opportunistic and selfish in making any decision?
I don't think about this question in impersonal manner. i don't do it for any question which troubles me. decisions I take are connected with what honesty I have with my questions. there are times when I feel that having such questions is curse and I try to run away. but somehow I come back to original stage of constantly thinking over some deep dilemmas.
the question makes sense when one decides way of living. if i am defining my life by my own instincts and desires and passions, then why should I care what it has to do with other people. but on conscious re-examination of previous sentence, one can realize that it has too many subjective terms. my passions, desires are ultimately based on life around me too and for most of the times, life around is defined by persons like our own. thats make question more complicated.

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