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There were two options before. either lie and keep you happy in the web of interconnected lies. But as it is said it is difficult to lie consistently as memory is short. I chose the truth, and that made me puzzled.
the best way to sense your existence within me is distance. Being close, I get lost in pleasure of your external existence, and then it is not lived entirely.
Life is designed as ambiguities. I need decision put on me to move ahead. Hence, I wait to listen to life.

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